Joy to the world the Lord is come,
Let earth receive her king,
Let every heart prepare him room,
And heaven and nature sing.
And heaven and nature sing,
And heaven and heaven and nature sing.
We sang this song at the Lord's supper last Sunday. I didn't feel the joy of the people when they sang this song. It was monotonous despite the joyous mood that the composer had given to the song. Everyone seemed to be solemn. The atmosphere of my church during the worship service had always raised questions in my heart. Were the member's there because it's just another Lord's day to keep the Sabbath holy by going to church? Well, I am not in the position to judge if they are truly sincere in their worship. On the other extreme, people who are from more 'contemporary' churches are so enthusiastic in their worship, they jump, dance and shout of God's love and awesomeness. Mine is the total opposite. I have grown up in this kind of setting and I have learned to worship God in the solemn manner and treasured the stillness of the setting more ad more each year
. But the question that has bogged me is " Why does our church lack the excitement and zeal when worshipping God? ". I am not asking for everyone to be jumping around praising God or everyone raising their hands. People seemed to be so Asian, sitting and singing seriously( now how can people sing seriously when they are praising the ALMIGHTY GOD?). At least, I know I need to constantly check myself if I am categorized into that sunday christian group. I start to wonder to myself if I have truly rejoiced with the angels and heaven and earth when I know that Christ the Saviour is born to the world to fulfill His mission. This year's carolers went to less houses compared to the previous years. Some people were disappointed because of the months of effort that were put in to perfect our blending and harmony in our singing. Nevertheless, this year's caroling has been a blessing to me because I was pondering on the lyrics of the carols that I have sung throughout the years. More to come in the later posts about my post thoughts from Christmas. I got many presents this christmas. Gifts of the Words from God.
THANK YOU, PAPA!!
Friday, December 26, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
Story of the 2 Banana Hunters
In a not faraway land called Nilai, there lived two pathetic guys called X and Y.
After a workout in the gymnasium, X decided to go hunt for bananas.
On his way out, he met Y and asked Y would like to join in his quest for bananas.
Y had nothing better to do, so Y tagged along.
Along the journey, Y was curious why X suddenly wanted bananas, so he asked X about it.
X gave a piece of nutritional facts on food.
One banana = one big bowl of rice ( meaninng lots of carbohydrates)
Y again was curious why X wanted carbohyrates. X said that he wanted to gain weight.
The quest for bananas continued.
X and Y finally reach a supermarket.
They found little fruits at the place. Only a couple of miserable apples and oranges.
X and Y moved on.
They went to the shops next door to find if they sell any bananas.
X and Y entered a mini market. No bananas found.
X and Y entered the shop nearby that sells stationery and some electrical stuff (mind you, there were no edible stuffs sold).
X asked the cashier if they sell any bananas
and Y giggled at the back realizing that X was 'asking a monk for a comb'.
Again, no sign of BANANAS!!!
X and Y embarked on their mobile and drove to another part of Nilai.
As they were driving slowly, searching the streets ( not for potential victims) for bananas.
To their dismay, all the fruits stalls they passed sell no bananas.
X was happy to find a pasar malam on its setting up.
Therefore they tried their luck there.
Outcome: They found langsat, mandarin oranges, apples, grapes, persimmon, pears, duku langsat, mangoes and many others fruits.. but still NO BANANAs!!!
X and Y were sad.
X did not give up, he said that justice must be done for the petrol that was wasted before this.
They continued on.
When they were passing some housing areads with some vacant land, they saw banana trees standing around with bunches of bananas.
Y asked why not they just go and get those.
It was a silly idea.
X saw another row of shophouses.
They decided to go in and have a look.
They found a fruit shop.
They were happy to find out that there were two bunches of bananas hung at the shop.
Finally they found BANANAS!!!
ALHAMDULILAH！！！ PRAISE THE LORD！！！ 感谢主！！!
The 6-inches-long yummy BANANAs!!!
After a workout in the gymnasium, X decided to go hunt for bananas.
On his way out, he met Y and asked Y would like to join in his quest for bananas.
Y had nothing better to do, so Y tagged along.
Along the journey, Y was curious why X suddenly wanted bananas, so he asked X about it.
X gave a piece of nutritional facts on food.
One banana = one big bowl of rice ( meaninng lots of carbohydrates)
Y again was curious why X wanted carbohyrates. X said that he wanted to gain weight.
The quest for bananas continued.
X and Y finally reach a supermarket.
They found little fruits at the place. Only a couple of miserable apples and oranges.
X and Y moved on.
They went to the shops next door to find if they sell any bananas.
X and Y entered a mini market. No bananas found.
X and Y entered the shop nearby that sells stationery and some electrical stuff (mind you, there were no edible stuffs sold).
X asked the cashier if they sell any bananas
and Y giggled at the back realizing that X was 'asking a monk for a comb'.
Again, no sign of BANANAS!!!
X and Y embarked on their mobile and drove to another part of Nilai.
As they were driving slowly, searching the streets ( not for potential victims) for bananas.
To their dismay, all the fruits stalls they passed sell no bananas.
X was happy to find a pasar malam on its setting up.
Therefore they tried their luck there.
Outcome: They found langsat, mandarin oranges, apples, grapes, persimmon, pears, duku langsat, mangoes and many others fruits.. but still NO BANANAs!!!
X and Y were sad.
X did not give up, he said that justice must be done for the petrol that was wasted before this.
They continued on.
When they were passing some housing areads with some vacant land, they saw banana trees standing around with bunches of bananas.
Y asked why not they just go and get those.
It was a silly idea.
X saw another row of shophouses.
They decided to go in and have a look.
They found a fruit shop.
They were happy to find out that there were two bunches of bananas hung at the shop.
Finally they found BANANAS!!!
ALHAMDULILAH！！！ PRAISE THE LORD！！！ 感谢主！！!
The 6-inches-long yummy BANANAs!!!
Monday, November 17, 2008
vincent the son of mr. chan is still a LOSER
18/11/08 holds no significant meaning to anyone except some who have their birthday or their special occasions on this very day. But this day is the day of reckoning for me, the announcement of result for my Year 2 Semester 2. I didn't expect too much from this exam also. As mentioned in the older posts, I am tired of being a loser. I grabbed hold myself of some courage and signed in to the website to check it the resultss. I told myself, even if i couldn't pull up my average, at least I will maintain it. But to my horror, it wasn't even there. I have been and after all still a loser. Looking at my dung-like result, I couldn't help but swallowed my tears. Not that I have not put in any effort in those papers but I just can't perform. The paper of which i put my highest hope only turned out to be a mere B- (I aimed to get at least an A-).
Now that my last semester is dawning, I just could pray that greater things are yet to come. Final semester in INTI means final project and subjects that kept some student another semester in INTI.
Lord, give me the diligence and the faith
that you will help me to not become a grasshopper.
I am tired of being a loser all through my college studies.
I never know how it feels to be accomplished
since I step into tertiary level.
O Lord, make this semester a conquering semester for me.
Amen
Now that my last semester is dawning, I just could pray that greater things are yet to come. Final semester in INTI means final project and subjects that kept some student another semester in INTI.
Lord, give me the diligence and the faith
that you will help me to not become a grasshopper.
I am tired of being a loser all through my college studies.
I never know how it feels to be accomplished
since I step into tertiary level.
O Lord, make this semester a conquering semester for me.
Amen
Sunday, November 16, 2008
O Sacred King by Matt Redman
One brother chose this song in the night worship we had two days back. I am glad he chose this song although most of us don't know this song. The lyrics of the song goes like this:
O Sacred King
O Holy King
How can I honour you rightly
Honour that's fit for your name
O Sacred King
O Holy King
I don't take what you did lightly
Friendship instead of disgrace
For it's the mystery of the universe
You're the God of holiness
Yet you welcome souls like me
And with the blessings of your Father's heart
You discipline the ones you love
There's kindness in your majesty
Jesus, those who recognise your power
Know just how wonderful you are
That You draw near
I am much moved by the words of this songs. How can we truly do what You actually did for us? If I am asked to forgive a person who has wronged me or hurt me, I think it would take me some time to forgive that person. What more to forgive and forget? But the God whom I worship not only forgive and forget, but He drew near to me. This is the ultimate demonstration of love and grace. If only the people of this earth can do this to each other, this world definitely will be a better place. I am humbled. If a God universe showed love to dust, all the more, we, human made of dusts need to follow his example in doing so to people around us. Currently, I am dealing with an old wound that has re-emerged, I pray that God will help me get over this and to be reconciled to that guy. Amen
O Sacred King
O Holy King
How can I honour you rightly
Honour that's fit for your name
O Sacred King
O Holy King
I don't take what you did lightly
Friendship instead of disgrace
For it's the mystery of the universe
You're the God of holiness
Yet you welcome souls like me
And with the blessings of your Father's heart
You discipline the ones you love
There's kindness in your majesty
Jesus, those who recognise your power
Know just how wonderful you are
That You draw near
I am much moved by the words of this songs. How can we truly do what You actually did for us? If I am asked to forgive a person who has wronged me or hurt me, I think it would take me some time to forgive that person. What more to forgive and forget? But the God whom I worship not only forgive and forget, but He drew near to me. This is the ultimate demonstration of love and grace. If only the people of this earth can do this to each other, this world definitely will be a better place. I am humbled. If a God universe showed love to dust, all the more, we, human made of dusts need to follow his example in doing so to people around us. Currently, I am dealing with an old wound that has re-emerged, I pray that God will help me get over this and to be reconciled to that guy. Amen
Friday, November 7, 2008
My Goliath is Here
Development and Fabrication of Humanoid Arm Manipulator - part of the Robofriend research project.... Got this title as my final year project, truly breathtaking... Looking forward to lots of work in the coming semester.. Got to buck up and go all out for this project. Alhamdulilah.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
A Total Mess
It was indeed prophecy came true.
Trasient period before disaster struck. - 'Profet' Vincent
29 October 08
After eating dinner, I came back to my room. I took a quick shower before getting myself stick to my chair for some final touches to my revision for tomorrow's subject. Before I could even get myself going, I found myself being attacked by the virus of laziness and 'stress-free'. And so I got myself entertained by a two episodes of shin chan ( mind you, it took me on 14.44 minutes to finish), hoping that I can rid myself of the paralysis and can start off with a bit of last minute revision. After that 14.44 minutes, I am still crippled. I got myself to bed early, all determined to wake up at 5am tomorrow to study. I rolled. I turned a little. I tried to sleep but suddenly my heatbeat got faster. A wave of stress suddenly gushed towards me. After rolling on the bed for like an hour, I couldn't sleep. I pushed my lazy butt up and switched on my table lamp and immediately changed to study mode. Looking at those graphical method for velocity and acceleration, mass balancing and some vibration notes, I thought to myself: Gee, I know them. After a quick browsing through that whole lot, for about an hour? My eyes got heavy, it's finally time to sleep.
30 October 08
I woke up at 7.25am. I got up to wash up and had a quick breakfast. Off I went to my exam hall. Upon reaching the hall, I took all the necessary stuff for my exam, chose a good seat and sat down. Yeah! It's finally here. The paper that I put a lot of hope in. A chance to redeem myself from the pool of Bs for the past few Dynamics
papers I took. The invigilator signalled us to start and it began. Glancing through the questions, to the shock of my life, I found myself entangled in an terribly stressed up situation. What is this?!?!!! I don't even know how to solve this question. "Four bar linkage requiring us to find the two angular velocities and angular acceleration, later to verify it by graphical method." The strange thing is that an equation is given and it took me a while to digest it. Now when it reached the graphical method, I am unsure of the steps. The same thing happened for other questions. All my CONFIDENCE ARE SHATTERED.
Lord, I am a failure again. After all this while, I still need your miracle in my results. SORRY MUM, I FAILED YOU AGAIN...
Disaster really strucked- Fulfilled by 'Profet' Vincent
Trasient period before disaster struck. - 'Profet' Vincent
29 October 08
After eating dinner, I came back to my room. I took a quick shower before getting myself stick to my chair for some final touches to my revision for tomorrow's subject. Before I could even get myself going, I found myself being attacked by the virus of laziness and 'stress-free'. And so I got myself entertained by a two episodes of shin chan ( mind you, it took me on 14.44 minutes to finish), hoping that I can rid myself of the paralysis and can start off with a bit of last minute revision. After that 14.44 minutes, I am still crippled. I got myself to bed early, all determined to wake up at 5am tomorrow to study. I rolled. I turned a little. I tried to sleep but suddenly my heatbeat got faster. A wave of stress suddenly gushed towards me. After rolling on the bed for like an hour, I couldn't sleep. I pushed my lazy butt up and switched on my table lamp and immediately changed to study mode. Looking at those graphical method for velocity and acceleration, mass balancing and some vibration notes, I thought to myself: Gee, I know them. After a quick browsing through that whole lot, for about an hour? My eyes got heavy, it's finally time to sleep.
30 October 08
I woke up at 7.25am. I got up to wash up and had a quick breakfast. Off I went to my exam hall. Upon reaching the hall, I took all the necessary stuff for my exam, chose a good seat and sat down. Yeah! It's finally here. The paper that I put a lot of hope in. A chance to redeem myself from the pool of Bs for the past few Dynamics
papers I took. The invigilator signalled us to start and it began. Glancing through the questions, to the shock of my life, I found myself entangled in an terribly stressed up situation. What is this?!?!!! I don't even know how to solve this question. "Four bar linkage requiring us to find the two angular velocities and angular acceleration, later to verify it by graphical method." The strange thing is that an equation is given and it took me a while to digest it. Now when it reached the graphical method, I am unsure of the steps. The same thing happened for other questions. All my CONFIDENCE ARE SHATTERED.
Lord, I am a failure again. After all this while, I still need your miracle in my results. SORRY MUM, I FAILED YOU AGAIN...
Disaster really strucked- Fulfilled by 'Profet' Vincent
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Trasient Period Before Disaster Strucks
Bangun pagi,
Gosok gigi,
Cuci muka,
Pakai baju,
Makan roti,
Minum susu,
Semua orang suka hati..
I don't know for what reason, this song played in my mind when i woke up this morning. I wonder what happened to my pre-exam stress. I am not that prepared for exam this time. But where are those worries and pressure that normally come during exam period? I am worried that I am not worried for exam now.
Mum messaged me a couple weeks ago reminding me to study hard because she has put in high hope on me. I kept reminiding myself to study hard, but the spirit has just lasted for a mere two to three weeks before I tumble again. Was it due to myself yielding to temptations like FIFA 08 (that has been both a blessing and curse to me), sports?, movies (neh, I am not an ardent fan of movies), music all day long, experimenting some nice songs on my guitar... and the list of distractions go on and on. Nevertheless, here am I at the last corner before I come to my first paper in another 22 hours. Now, pray for me as I need to score at least B in both my papers or myw pathway to Leeds will be doomed. Thanks to my lackadaisical attitude that has pulled down my average to the borderline since my degree first semester. Now that I have reached this stage of my study life. Just one more semester before I finish my course locally and waiting to board plane to U.K.
I faileth not.
Pray for this two subjects of mine that sounded very engineering. Yes, they are.
DYNAMICS AND SYSTEM VIBRATION
THERMOFLUID AND MECHANICAL DESIGN
Gosok gigi,
Cuci muka,
Pakai baju,
Makan roti,
Minum susu,
Semua orang suka hati..
I don't know for what reason, this song played in my mind when i woke up this morning. I wonder what happened to my pre-exam stress. I am not that prepared for exam this time. But where are those worries and pressure that normally come during exam period? I am worried that I am not worried for exam now.
Mum messaged me a couple weeks ago reminding me to study hard because she has put in high hope on me. I kept reminiding myself to study hard, but the spirit has just lasted for a mere two to three weeks before I tumble again. Was it due to myself yielding to temptations like FIFA 08 (that has been both a blessing and curse to me), sports?, movies (neh, I am not an ardent fan of movies), music all day long, experimenting some nice songs on my guitar... and the list of distractions go on and on. Nevertheless, here am I at the last corner before I come to my first paper in another 22 hours. Now, pray for me as I need to score at least B in both my papers or myw pathway to Leeds will be doomed. Thanks to my lackadaisical attitude that has pulled down my average to the borderline since my degree first semester. Now that I have reached this stage of my study life. Just one more semester before I finish my course locally and waiting to board plane to U.K.
I faileth not.
Pray for this two subjects of mine that sounded very engineering. Yes, they are.
DYNAMICS AND SYSTEM VIBRATION
THERMOFLUID AND MECHANICAL DESIGN
Friday, September 26, 2008
This Blog is Not Dead
Had been busy lately? Was I? Just wanna write something here to let you all know that it's not dead. I will be posting soon about my recent updates.. stay tuned...Just in case you have nothing better to do, try this..
http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html?cid=YSSP
This is not a prank.. Try it out.. But i wanna warn you, it's addictive as it is stated in the URL itself..
http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html?cid=YSSP
This is not a prank.. Try it out.. But i wanna warn you, it's addictive as it is stated in the URL itself..
Thursday, September 4, 2008
My Country Malaysia
[Orang Melayu dikatakan terkenal sebagai bangsa yang bersopan santun, bangsa yang sangat toleran terhadap kaum lain, bangsa yang sangat suka bertolak-ansur, sehingga diam tidak diam banyak hak mereaka di negara ini jatuh ke tangan orang lain.]
(extracted without permission from utusan malaysia)
These are the words that truly made us to be who we are..
Negaraku tanah tumpahnya darahku.....
(extracted without permission from utusan malaysia)
These are the words that truly made us to be who we are..
Negaraku tanah tumpahnya darahku.....
Monday, August 25, 2008
Happy but Sad
While God's grace is so abounding, I cannot help but woeing to myself to stop looking for miracles in my results... and here again, it comes. I checked my results online and I saw it. I was just hoping that I pass all my papers. The results was better and worse than I think. Am I confusing? That's what actually happening now. I am happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I passed them all and sad because my average is at critical level again!!!
Oh God, I yearn to leave this life of a loser!!!
I want to be a good student again.
Help me O Lord!
Oh God, I yearn to leave this life of a loser!!!
I want to be a good student again.
Help me O Lord!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
ENL 291.. One Paper Down, Three More To Go
I just sat for my first examination today, which is an english paper. I have much confidence in this paper. However, my confidence got a blow when I read the essay questions. I have to choose one of the three:
a) E-commerce will enhance business.
( People take e-commerce as a subject, what in the world do I know about it? Maybe I am really lacking in my general knowledge)
b) Marijuana should be legalized for medical purposes
(Marijuana ? Now that's a good topic.. I only know it's some kind of painkiller drugs.. What else besides that?)
c) Professional athletes do not deserve the high salaries they are paid.----------------->(Thank goodness God provided me a way out)... Oh NOooooo, I just remembered that I forgot to put in transition words in my essay. Now, I am dead. Never mind, let bygones by bygones.
First paper down, it's project management paper tomorrow, one subjects that requires nothing more than extreme brain power,literally. We are required to swallow the whole of the subjects notes and vomit it out during exam. Another 'not useless' but 'useful' subjects??? Engineers also need to learn something about business too. For example: Balance sheet? Business Plan? Marslow's Hierachy of Needs? Ten rules of Brainstorming? Definition of Project Management? They are drowning me... HELPppppppppp!!!!!!!
Now sunday school songs comes in handy and apt.
Sing with me:
With Christ in the Vessel, I can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm, smile at the storm.
With Christ in the Vessel, I can smile at the storm
As we go sailing home.....
(Oh yeah, I am sailing back to Ipoh soon, after the exam)
Just three more papers to go.. USHhhhhKAaaaaa!!!!
a) E-commerce will enhance business.
( People take e-commerce as a subject, what in the world do I know about it? Maybe I am really lacking in my general knowledge)
b) Marijuana should be legalized for medical purposes
(Marijuana ? Now that's a good topic.. I only know it's some kind of painkiller drugs.. What else besides that?)
c) Professional athletes do not deserve the high salaries they are paid.----------------->(Thank goodness God provided me a way out)... Oh NOooooo, I just remembered that I forgot to put in transition words in my essay. Now, I am dead. Never mind, let bygones by bygones.
First paper down, it's project management paper tomorrow, one subjects that requires nothing more than extreme brain power,literally. We are required to swallow the whole of the subjects notes and vomit it out during exam. Another 'not useless' but 'useful' subjects??? Engineers also need to learn something about business too. For example: Balance sheet? Business Plan? Marslow's Hierachy of Needs? Ten rules of Brainstorming? Definition of Project Management? They are drowning me... HELPppppppppp!!!!!!!
Now sunday school songs comes in handy and apt.
Sing with me:
With Christ in the Vessel, I can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm, smile at the storm.
With Christ in the Vessel, I can smile at the storm
As we go sailing home.....
(Oh yeah, I am sailing back to Ipoh soon, after the exam)
Just three more papers to go.. USHhhhhKAaaaaa!!!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Glory to God
A worm brings glory to God by being wormy...
A dog brings glory to God by being doggie..
Man brings glory to God by being ???
A dog brings glory to God by being doggie..
Man brings glory to God by being ???
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Hoping This Week Will Pass Soon
All the busyness and emotional stress that I encountered this week were a blessing from my laziness and procastination habit that was serious this semester.
Here are the collections of stuff I must accomplish this week:
1. Monday- English Presentation on an innovated product, Maths assignment
2. Tuesday- no class but have to rush the business plan and assignment for product development( all this were given in week 3 of the semester but I was LAZY). So the consequences- sleepless tuesday night, death of many of my brain cells, headache and headache...
3. Wednesday- Deadline for business plan, product development assignment and combustion assignment. Thank God, God sent an ANGEL that helped me a lot with my business plan( really owed this angel my everything), I managed to hand in the assigment in time. Besides that, the day has not end, Futsal For ALL (FFA) starts at 6pm till 1am today. I am part of the organizing committee. That means I will have to be busy again. No... Having combustion test 2 tomorrow, still have a lot to study. Really need to score this time as I did not do well in the previous test.
4. Thursday- Futsal Competition again! Quarter Finals > Semi > Finals... Prepare for Maths Test on Friday...
5. Friday- White Friday is coming and i can hear it coming. Hoping this week would pass soon.
Oh Tuhanku, selamatkan aku dari kemalasan aku yang tidak terhingga ini. Amen.
Here are the collections of stuff I must accomplish this week:
1. Monday- English Presentation on an innovated product, Maths assignment
2. Tuesday- no class but have to rush the business plan and assignment for product development( all this were given in week 3 of the semester but I was LAZY). So the consequences- sleepless tuesday night, death of many of my brain cells, headache and headache...
3. Wednesday- Deadline for business plan, product development assignment and combustion assignment. Thank God, God sent an ANGEL that helped me a lot with my business plan( really owed this angel my everything), I managed to hand in the assigment in time. Besides that, the day has not end, Futsal For ALL (FFA) starts at 6pm till 1am today. I am part of the organizing committee. That means I will have to be busy again. No... Having combustion test 2 tomorrow, still have a lot to study. Really need to score this time as I did not do well in the previous test.
4. Thursday- Futsal Competition again! Quarter Finals > Semi > Finals... Prepare for Maths Test on Friday...
5. Friday- White Friday is coming and i can hear it coming. Hoping this week would pass soon.
Oh Tuhanku, selamatkan aku dari kemalasan aku yang tidak terhingga ini. Amen.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Am I A Good Son?
Much thoughts have been playing in my mind this whole week. From the preparation work for the backwood's man cooking to the study assignments.. everything cant seemed to finish and they had a strong grip on me, not only physically but mentally too. But all this worries boiled down to nothing when I heard of this story.
Now there was a widower who had worked hard to make ends meet for his family. He has put in much hope in his children to change his fate. However, life has gotten tougher even when his children grew up.
His eldest son has always been childish in his decisions-making. He didn't hold any academic qualification and neither did he have any purpose in life. He didn't have a permanent job for more than a month. Everytime he resigned his job on his own without thinking about the consequences. The same thing happens this time round for his job in the supermarket. He got confronted for not performing his duty well. Out of his anger, he just walked off the supermarket and left his job. He didn't inform his father and just left the town.
Now there was another son of his, the second eldest, whom he has put in much time, effort and money in supporting his education even to tertiery level. He had a lucrative job as a qualified accountant. Even so, moral and family values have not sunk deep in him. There was once the man got hurt in the car garage where he worked. His backbone was hurt and he was admitted to hospital. He called his son and told him about the news. The son got angry, and yelled at him for his carelessness. He even warned him that if he gets hurt for the second time, he will not pay his medical fees again. Now here was a poor man, lied helpless on his sick bed. Bitterness and sadness both overwhelmed him.
Behind his bitterness, he smiled to himself a little, realizing that he still has a last hope of being loved and comforted. He decided to call his youngest daughter, the daughter whom he thought was the best of all, for she has been good and obedient in the house. He called her but failed to reach her. With the help of the nurse, he called his daughter for the second, third and fourth time. But all his calls to no avail...
I was very sad for the man. I felt ashamed of the children for being such ruthless lots. Not loving their father and didn't even care to answer his call of despair. After a while, i realised that I am no better than them. I have taken for granted the things that Daddy gave to me. The air that I breathed, the chirping of birds that lighten up the morning, the sunshine that gives warmth, the rain that cooled down the torment and the privilege of being His child. I have only been crying for His help when I am in difficulties. I have never to even care to listen to Him when he wants to talk to me. How do I love one whom I don't even know. He didn't need us to live, but He yearns to communicate with His child, his own creation and masterpiece.
Now there was a widower who had worked hard to make ends meet for his family. He has put in much hope in his children to change his fate. However, life has gotten tougher even when his children grew up.
His eldest son has always been childish in his decisions-making. He didn't hold any academic qualification and neither did he have any purpose in life. He didn't have a permanent job for more than a month. Everytime he resigned his job on his own without thinking about the consequences. The same thing happens this time round for his job in the supermarket. He got confronted for not performing his duty well. Out of his anger, he just walked off the supermarket and left his job. He didn't inform his father and just left the town.
Now there was another son of his, the second eldest, whom he has put in much time, effort and money in supporting his education even to tertiery level. He had a lucrative job as a qualified accountant. Even so, moral and family values have not sunk deep in him. There was once the man got hurt in the car garage where he worked. His backbone was hurt and he was admitted to hospital. He called his son and told him about the news. The son got angry, and yelled at him for his carelessness. He even warned him that if he gets hurt for the second time, he will not pay his medical fees again. Now here was a poor man, lied helpless on his sick bed. Bitterness and sadness both overwhelmed him.
Behind his bitterness, he smiled to himself a little, realizing that he still has a last hope of being loved and comforted. He decided to call his youngest daughter, the daughter whom he thought was the best of all, for she has been good and obedient in the house. He called her but failed to reach her. With the help of the nurse, he called his daughter for the second, third and fourth time. But all his calls to no avail...
I was very sad for the man. I felt ashamed of the children for being such ruthless lots. Not loving their father and didn't even care to answer his call of despair. After a while, i realised that I am no better than them. I have taken for granted the things that Daddy gave to me. The air that I breathed, the chirping of birds that lighten up the morning, the sunshine that gives warmth, the rain that cooled down the torment and the privilege of being His child. I have only been crying for His help when I am in difficulties. I have never to even care to listen to Him when he wants to talk to me. How do I love one whom I don't even know. He didn't need us to live, but He yearns to communicate with His child, his own creation and masterpiece.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
God Will Make A Way
I have nothing much to blog lately. On a dark but not lonely night, under a dim orange streetlight, we sang this song behind the hostel's surau beside the parking lot. God reminded me that more than anything, he cares for me.
God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my Guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today
Thanks xiu mei, sherene and vivien for constantly being the source of encouragement for me. I will forever treasure and cherish the friendship and the relationship we have in Him. Thank God for all of you!
God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my Guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today
Thanks xiu mei, sherene and vivien for constantly being the source of encouragement for me. I will forever treasure and cherish the friendship and the relationship we have in Him. Thank God for all of you!
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
VAN-dalism
One not so fine day, a young man wanted to drive back to his hostel. But when he inserted the key into the keyhole and tried to start it......
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Science ? God ?
An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, The ALMIGHTY.
He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and...
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill.
But GOD didn't.
How is this GOD Good then ? Hmm ?
( Student is silent )
Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And GOD did make Everything. Correct ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?
( Student does not answer )
Professor : Is there Sickness ? Immorality ? Hatred ? Ugliness ?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?
( Student has no answer )
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe
the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD ?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD ?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD ?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter ?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol,
Science says your GOD doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son ?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes. Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.
( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )
Student : What about Darkness, Professor ? Is there such a thing as Darkness ?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness ?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light , Bright Light, Flashing Light...
But if you have No Light Constantly, you have Nothing and it's called
darkness, isn't it ? In reality, Darkness isn't.If it is, were you
would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you ?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is Flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how ?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life : just the Absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you Teach your Students that they Evolved from a Monkey ?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir ?
( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
are you not Teaching your Opinion, sir ?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher ?
( The Class is in Uproar )
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever Seen the Professor's Brain ?
( The Class breaks out into Laughter )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever Heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it Touched or Smelt it ?... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science say that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir ?
( The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable )
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir... the Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.
*It turned out later that the student is Albert Einsten ???
(note: sorry for some alignment problem)
He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and...
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill.
But GOD didn't.
How is this GOD Good then ? Hmm ?
( Student is silent )
Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And GOD did make Everything. Correct ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?
( Student does not answer )
Professor : Is there Sickness ? Immorality ? Hatred ? Ugliness ?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?
( Student has no answer )
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe
the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD ?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD ?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD ?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter ?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol,
Science says your GOD doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son ?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes. Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.
( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )
Student : What about Darkness, Professor ? Is there such a thing as Darkness ?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness ?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light , Bright Light, Flashing Light...
But if you have No Light Constantly, you have Nothing and it's called
darkness, isn't it ? In reality, Darkness isn't.If it is, were you
would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you ?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is Flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how ?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life : just the Absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you Teach your Students that they Evolved from a Monkey ?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir ?
( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
are you not Teaching your Opinion, sir ?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher ?
( The Class is in Uproar )
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever Seen the Professor's Brain ?
( The Class breaks out into Laughter )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever Heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it Touched or Smelt it ?... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science say that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir ?
( The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable )
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir... the Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.
*It turned out later that the student is Albert Einsten ???
(note: sorry for some alignment problem)
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Are you for Him?
Salvation belongs to our God
Who sits upon the throne
And unto the Lamb
Praise and glory
Wisdom and thanks
Honour and thanks
Honour and power and strength
Be to our God forever and ever
Be to our God forever and ever
Be to our God forever and ever
Amen
In the worship service today, I was moved to choose the song. I don't remember what thought actually brought my fingers to this song in the hymnbook. But I didn't stand up to share this song in the end. Before I even move on, someone stood up and chose the song. I was really taken aback and God has proved himself to me again that I am not the only candidate in His list. If I cannot even follow such simple instruction from Him, how am I going to be bold for Him in bigger things and mission.... I wonder
Who sits upon the throne
And unto the Lamb
Praise and glory
Wisdom and thanks
Honour and thanks
Honour and power and strength
Be to our God forever and ever
Be to our God forever and ever
Be to our God forever and ever
Amen
In the worship service today, I was moved to choose the song. I don't remember what thought actually brought my fingers to this song in the hymnbook. But I didn't stand up to share this song in the end. Before I even move on, someone stood up and chose the song. I was really taken aback and God has proved himself to me again that I am not the only candidate in His list. If I cannot even follow such simple instruction from Him, how am I going to be bold for Him in bigger things and mission.... I wonder
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Slacky Start
I'm stucked in my laziness. Lazing around and not doing anything although I have assignment to pass up later in class, 10am at 15/5/08 to be precise and I am still doing nothing here.Sien.
Nothing much happened today. Third day for the recruitment week in our college. Spent two hours plus at the CF and frisbee booth. Suffered injury in my ear throughout the duration because of some people who don't know how to appreciate music. Just blasting off their speakers and the situation worsened when another company joined in with some Indian drummers going loud with their indie beat. Sound pollution unleashed its fatality as two more groups of uncivilized lots joined in the 'symphony of distorted wave', yelling their clubs' name... "Axxxxxxxx Club and Sxxxx Club!!!" Good day huh?
Nevertheless, all those cannot overcome my anticipation for Friday because i am KAMBING BACK, IPOH!!!
Nothing much happened today. Third day for the recruitment week in our college. Spent two hours plus at the CF and frisbee booth. Suffered injury in my ear throughout the duration because of some people who don't know how to appreciate music. Just blasting off their speakers and the situation worsened when another company joined in with some Indian drummers going loud with their indie beat. Sound pollution unleashed its fatality as two more groups of uncivilized lots joined in the 'symphony of distorted wave', yelling their clubs' name... "Axxxxxxxx Club and Sxxxx Club!!!" Good day huh?
Nevertheless, all those cannot overcome my anticipation for Friday because i am KAMBING BACK, IPOH!!!
Monday, March 31, 2008
Something that Has Got Nothing to Do with April's Fool
"LEISURE" by William Henry Davies
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
My English teacher in high school taught me this poem.
And of course, it carries not significance to me at that time.
But today, out of nowhere, the lines just emerged in my mind
and its meaning appeared so real to me.
Indeed 'A poor life this if, full of care,We have no time to stand and stare'.
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
My English teacher in high school taught me this poem.
And of course, it carries not significance to me at that time.
But today, out of nowhere, the lines just emerged in my mind
and its meaning appeared so real to me.
Indeed 'A poor life this if, full of care,We have no time to stand and stare'.
Sailing in His Love
I cannot say that I have triumph over this challenge that You gave me
At least I have managed to pull through it
With You that gave me strength
Word that gave me answers to life
Prayer that gave me peace
Friends that cheer me on
Mum that called in time
Tears that rolled on my cheek
And the so many things that made my voyage in storm worth its sailing
I guess right now I am still sailing in the sea
Not far from my next stop
Oh Lord, how little do I know of the word love,
Easy to spell yet hard to fathom its truest meaning
Simple to say yet hard to show
The word love that I say often times comes with
Selfishness, jealousy, envy….
All I want out of love is just for me myself.
Father, you created the word ‘love’
And you gave life to the word ‘love’
It’s because of love that you created us
It’s because of love that you let us make choices
It’s because of love that you call us back even when we made wrong choices
It’s because of love that you still want us despite of all our iniquities
It’s because of love that
You would sent Jesus to die for people who rejects you
It’s because of love that we still can call You Abba Father after all we’ve done
Merciful God,
Now that I have only a bit of the bitterness of sacrificing for love
Now that I have decided to let go this feeling that I never thought I would be trapped in
Let Your love overcome
Overcome my feeble love for this friend,
Let all that in me be given unto You
I really want to love You
I am broken, yes, truly broken
Lord, now that I am shattered
Shape and mould me O Lord
That I may become your instrument
Instrument that plays only Your music
Music that echoes Your love
And may this instrument of yours
Finds one that will fill its loneliness
Discovers one that will play with it the perfect rhythms of love
That glorifies You, O Lord, the Greatest Lover Ever.
You know all my hopes,
Lord, You know all our fears,
And words cannot express the love I feel,
But I long for You to hear.
At least I have managed to pull through it
With You that gave me strength
Word that gave me answers to life
Prayer that gave me peace
Friends that cheer me on
Mum that called in time
Tears that rolled on my cheek
And the so many things that made my voyage in storm worth its sailing
I guess right now I am still sailing in the sea
Not far from my next stop
Oh Lord, how little do I know of the word love,
Easy to spell yet hard to fathom its truest meaning
Simple to say yet hard to show
The word love that I say often times comes with
Selfishness, jealousy, envy….
All I want out of love is just for me myself.
Father, you created the word ‘love’
And you gave life to the word ‘love’
It’s because of love that you created us
It’s because of love that you let us make choices
It’s because of love that you call us back even when we made wrong choices
It’s because of love that you still want us despite of all our iniquities
It’s because of love that
You would sent Jesus to die for people who rejects you
It’s because of love that we still can call You Abba Father after all we’ve done
Merciful God,
Now that I have only a bit of the bitterness of sacrificing for love
Now that I have decided to let go this feeling that I never thought I would be trapped in
Let Your love overcome
Overcome my feeble love for this friend,
Let all that in me be given unto You
I really want to love You
I am broken, yes, truly broken
Lord, now that I am shattered
Shape and mould me O Lord
That I may become your instrument
Instrument that plays only Your music
Music that echoes Your love
And may this instrument of yours
Finds one that will fill its loneliness
Discovers one that will play with it the perfect rhythms of love
That glorifies You, O Lord, the Greatest Lover Ever.
You know all my hopes,
Lord, You know all our fears,
And words cannot express the love I feel,
But I long for You to hear.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
甜酸苦辣
I have always thought this post is rather poetic. My Mandarin teacher must be happy when she sees this because my mandarin did improve. :p Thoughts written here are no longer my struggle. It just adds another sad yet beautiful chapter to my life. Thank you for teaching me more about love and the reality of life.
生活是个跷跷板吗？当一方在高处时，另一方就必须在最低处吗?
生活是个战场吗？不是你死就是我活，都要敌人受伤才解决到问题吗？
生活就只有“爱”这个字吗？
但愿时间和神伟大的爱能将这都一一冲洗掉。。。
让我这破碎的心能痊愈。。。让我忘了一切童话故事。。。
永生大哥啊！你这一次真是泥足深陷了。。。
从山顶跌倒深谷的感受和经验一点都不好受啊！
堆集了在心里两天的泪终于流出来了，
希望这段感情就此告个段落。
神啊，救救我吧！
Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
生活是个跷跷板吗？当一方在高处时，另一方就必须在最低处吗?
生活是个战场吗？不是你死就是我活，都要敌人受伤才解决到问题吗？
生活就只有“爱”这个字吗？
但愿时间和神伟大的爱能将这都一一冲洗掉。。。
让我这破碎的心能痊愈。。。让我忘了一切童话故事。。。
永生大哥啊！你这一次真是泥足深陷了。。。
从山顶跌倒深谷的感受和经验一点都不好受啊！
堆集了在心里两天的泪终于流出来了，
希望这段感情就此告个段落。
神啊，救救我吧！
Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
爱你也是一股压力
在这一刻，我觉得最好的－就是让我们顺其自然。
我对你说一万次的“我爱你”并不能解决一切的困扰。
我一直固执地缠着你，只会让你更辛苦，更加的喘不过气。
如今，我唯一能做的就是等待时间来证明一切,
让天父一一为我解开这一个迷。
虽然处在这过程的我并不好受，可是我依然会珍惜这痛苦但甜蜜的一刻。
可以说我不知所措，但我并不是气馁。
在这瞬间祝福你我，给大家个美好的结局。
结局里不一定是你和我，只望你开心幸福。
我并不打算退出, 因为我愿意等你。
我对你说一万次的“我爱你”并不能解决一切的困扰。
我一直固执地缠着你，只会让你更辛苦，更加的喘不过气。
如今，我唯一能做的就是等待时间来证明一切,
让天父一一为我解开这一个迷。
虽然处在这过程的我并不好受，可是我依然会珍惜这痛苦但甜蜜的一刻。
可以说我不知所措，但我并不是气馁。
在这瞬间祝福你我，给大家个美好的结局。
结局里不一定是你和我，只望你开心幸福。
我并不打算退出, 因为我愿意等你。
Monday, February 4, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
Spot the Difference.. Case Closed
For those who are still wondering what went missing in the picture....I introduce you the 'Mr Viper Switch'.. This is the thing that caused me all the headaches this few days... In case, you are wondering how much does the thing costs.. It is RM95 for a second hand viper switch and another RM30 for service charge( six screws unscrewed to replaced the thing back, assume x as the cost for each screwed unscrewed,therefore 6x=30, x=RM5) Its RM5 for one screw I tell you... Nevertheless, thank God I didnt break any more VALUABLE parts. Thank him also for this chapter of my life. Without it, I wil never know how much it costs me to be an adult. Yes, an adult! Just turned 20 this year.
Moral of the story: DRIVE more CAREFULLY!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Quietness
I have stopped listening to that song which I posted few weeks back, rarely listens to love songs too . I didn't think of her as much as I had when I came back to college after semester break. But tonight, after a yamchaing session with my Ipoh mali friends, I walked back to my room. There was only me, alone in my room. Time began to slow down after a long and busy day. Quietness was all around. Thoughts of her creeped slowly into my mind. Knowing that this relationship was hard to work out, I wanted to put a stop to this feeling. I just couldn't bid farewell to this feeling. I have failed....
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Spot the Difference
Speechless me.. Sometimes we just need to be extra careful when handling old and flimsy stuff..
Who is to be blamed??
No one but me myself..
God, I know you are training me to smile at the storm..
But just why on something that doesnt belong to me...
Another PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE lesson.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I Missed
I missed Ipoh.
I missed scouting despite the many difficulties
and challenges that came my way.
I missed my camping days.
I missed my parang, bamboo, mangroove, marching, gunny strings....
I missed those torturous days of punishment
by my committeees with my scout comrades.
I missed my fellow brother scouts and sister guides.
I missed the days when I loitered in my school compound.
I missed my schoolmates.
I missed Yuk Choy
(despite how bad people may think of YC, Yuk Choy still ROXXXX!!!)
I missed those days when I hang around
with my childhood pals in church.
I missed doing crazy stuffs with them.
I missed my church.
I missed maggi goreng in Salim's Corner.
I missed those days when I was just a naive boy.
I missed those days before I turned 20.
I missed home.
I missed mum's cooking.
I missed sister's noise.
I missed dad's discipline for me.
I missed Ye Ye's pamper.
I missed Ma Ma's cooking too...
I missed those cycling days in Ipoh and Canning Garden.
I missed the times when I don't miss her.
I missed scouting despite the many difficulties
and challenges that came my way.
I missed my camping days.
I missed my parang, bamboo, mangroove, marching, gunny strings....
I missed those torturous days of punishment
by my committeees with my scout comrades.
I missed my fellow brother scouts and sister guides.
I missed the days when I loitered in my school compound.
I missed my schoolmates.
I missed Yuk Choy
(despite how bad people may think of YC, Yuk Choy still ROXXXX!!!)
I missed those days when I hang around
with my childhood pals in church.
I missed doing crazy stuffs with them.
I missed my church.
I missed maggi goreng in Salim's Corner.
I missed those days when I was just a naive boy.
I missed those days before I turned 20.
I missed home.
I missed mum's cooking.
I missed sister's noise.
I missed dad's discipline for me.
I missed Ye Ye's pamper.
I missed Ma Ma's cooking too...
I missed those cycling days in Ipoh and Canning Garden.
I missed the times when I don't miss her.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Guys and Their Egoism
Is it fair for me to say that
guys generally have egoism flowing in their veins?
If the game is on his side, he will stay cool.
If not, he wil go bull.
He will keep quiet when he fails in his attempts to score,
but when his teammates misses a
score, he will yell at that person.
He frowns at others' aggresiveness
when he didn't realise he is a hooligan himself.
He thinks the team will lose without him.
It's sometimes good to give motivation
but it will serve no good
if ones pushes his team too hard.
Well, it needs not be true for all guys to be like that.
But those are things i have in myself.
Are we true sportsmen or mere bull-fighters?
We need to check ourself.
guys generally have egoism flowing in their veins?
If the game is on his side, he will stay cool.
If not, he wil go bull.
He will keep quiet when he fails in his attempts to score,
but when his teammates misses a
score, he will yell at that person.
He frowns at others' aggresiveness
when he didn't realise he is a hooligan himself.
He thinks the team will lose without him.
It's sometimes good to give motivation
but it will serve no good
if ones pushes his team too hard.
Well, it needs not be true for all guys to be like that.
But those are things i have in myself.
Are we true sportsmen or mere bull-fighters?
We need to check ourself.
Last Days...
It was some time between 30 and 31st December 2007. Usually for my devotion, I would follow a guide where a passage is considered for each day. For that particular day, I was caught in a timing which is nowhere. Close to 31st but 30th has not end. So I decided to just read both the days' text. I didn't get the time to do some serious reflection and making of new year resolution but those words from God really aligned me to His direction for 2008.
Luke 12:35-40- Be dressed in readiness, and keep yours lamps lit. Be like men who are waiting for their master when he returns from the wedding feast. so that they may immediately open the door to him when he comes and knocks...... But be sure of this, that if the head of the house have known at what hour theif was coming, he would not have allowed his house to be broken into. You too, be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at tan hour that you do not expect.
I was kind of puzzled when I read this, wondering why would God speak to me about this. Nevertheless, I moved on to the next passage.
Psalm 23:5-6- You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;You have anointed my head with oil; My cups overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
This passage made sense to me because for the past 2007, I never did realise this part of the psalm though it's familiar. I have been living my life on my own too much, too much that God that seemed very much in the picture is found nowhere. I have literally kept God in my closet when life could have been much better if I lived my life with His strength. I have learnt my lesson again and I do hope I will not step on my foot again in the future.
I retired to bed after doing my devotion though I still couldn't understand why God gave me Luke 12. On 31st, I went to the watchnight service in my church. People were anticipating much and the supposed- to- be two hour meeting strecthed on to 4 hours. The speaker finally took over the meeting at about 11pm. I was waiting eagerly for the message. He was speaking on the urgency of spreading the gospel. Things mentioned in the Bible of the end times were fulfilled one by one and we have known of that. But what are our responses towards these happenings. This message appealed especially to me because he cleared my doubts on why Luke 12 was given to me that night. God was simply telling me to live my days as if its my last. It made sense to me now.
Today, I read from Psalm 90. This are verses that again lights up my pathway towards 2008.
Who understands the power of your anger.
And Your fury, according to the fear that is due You.
If only I can fully fathom the depths of these words of Moses. Transformation would definitely take place. I look forward to exploring this year. A year which I pray that I can be a more effective witness for Him. My service for Him should be an expression of my outpouring of his overflowing love in my heart an not the otherwise. And of course, a new year resolution that was carried forth from year to year, Taming My Tongue, an area that I have failed time and again.
"Use your mustard-seed-faith!!!"
Luke 12:35-40- Be dressed in readiness, and keep yours lamps lit. Be like men who are waiting for their master when he returns from the wedding feast. so that they may immediately open the door to him when he comes and knocks...... But be sure of this, that if the head of the house have known at what hour theif was coming, he would not have allowed his house to be broken into. You too, be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at tan hour that you do not expect.
I was kind of puzzled when I read this, wondering why would God speak to me about this. Nevertheless, I moved on to the next passage.
Psalm 23:5-6- You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;You have anointed my head with oil; My cups overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
This passage made sense to me because for the past 2007, I never did realise this part of the psalm though it's familiar. I have been living my life on my own too much, too much that God that seemed very much in the picture is found nowhere. I have literally kept God in my closet when life could have been much better if I lived my life with His strength. I have learnt my lesson again and I do hope I will not step on my foot again in the future.
I retired to bed after doing my devotion though I still couldn't understand why God gave me Luke 12. On 31st, I went to the watchnight service in my church. People were anticipating much and the supposed- to- be two hour meeting strecthed on to 4 hours. The speaker finally took over the meeting at about 11pm. I was waiting eagerly for the message. He was speaking on the urgency of spreading the gospel. Things mentioned in the Bible of the end times were fulfilled one by one and we have known of that. But what are our responses towards these happenings. This message appealed especially to me because he cleared my doubts on why Luke 12 was given to me that night. God was simply telling me to live my days as if its my last. It made sense to me now.
Today, I read from Psalm 90. This are verses that again lights up my pathway towards 2008.
Who understands the power of your anger.
And Your fury, according to the fear that is due You.
If only I can fully fathom the depths of these words of Moses. Transformation would definitely take place. I look forward to exploring this year. A year which I pray that I can be a more effective witness for Him. My service for Him should be an expression of my outpouring of his overflowing love in my heart an not the otherwise. And of course, a new year resolution that was carried forth from year to year, Taming My Tongue, an area that I have failed time and again.
"Use your mustard-seed-faith!!!"
Friday, January 11, 2008
P-I-L-L-O-W
I finally bought myself a pillow.. Yes, its a pillow. I have been sleeping in Room F1-24 without my pillow for 11 days ever since I reached INTI to resume my studies.
To add some bitterness to my cup, we had been having a natural alarm clocks every morning. At 8am or so, we would be awakened by a low amplitude with high frequency 'ting-ting-ting', sound of a hammer hitting on some metal thing followed by the thunderous noise with higher amplitude of drilling. The experience of waking up by this kind of annoying and disturbing sound pollution is definitely not the moment anyone wants to have in their life. Its one of the worst experience I have ever had. And believe me, its a routine tingee for me, well at least for two months i guess...
And now I have another companion to accompany me through this agony. I didnt have the chance to bid farewell to my loyal buddy-old pillow. My friend of whose room I left my pillow in throughout the semester claimed that my pillow is mossy. He threw my buddy away( cannot blame him also). There my old buddy went. I am wondering if he's doing fine now. In the junk? Life must have been hard for him too..
The old has gone and the new has come. I am happy to have get my new companion. Mr. Casablanca Foam(his name is written on the wrapper of the pillow) will be sharing me his dreams. I truly hope it will have a happy ending with me, not happily ever after but at least not like the fate of my old pillow. Anyway, Praise the Lord for providing us PILLOW!!!
You will never realise the significance of your pillow until it's gone.
-VINCENT-
To add some bitterness to my cup, we had been having a natural alarm clocks every morning. At 8am or so, we would be awakened by a low amplitude with high frequency 'ting-ting-ting', sound of a hammer hitting on some metal thing followed by the thunderous noise with higher amplitude of drilling. The experience of waking up by this kind of annoying and disturbing sound pollution is definitely not the moment anyone wants to have in their life. Its one of the worst experience I have ever had. And believe me, its a routine tingee for me, well at least for two months i guess...
And now I have another companion to accompany me through this agony. I didnt have the chance to bid farewell to my loyal buddy-old pillow. My friend of whose room I left my pillow in throughout the semester claimed that my pillow is mossy. He threw my buddy away( cannot blame him also). There my old buddy went. I am wondering if he's doing fine now. In the junk? Life must have been hard for him too..
The old has gone and the new has come. I am happy to have get my new companion. Mr. Casablanca Foam(his name is written on the wrapper of the pillow) will be sharing me his dreams. I truly hope it will have a happy ending with me, not happily ever after but at least not like the fate of my old pillow. Anyway, Praise the Lord for providing us PILLOW!!!
You will never realise the significance of your pillow until it's gone.
-VINCENT-
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
RAIN on ME
Tuesday 8th January 2008
ROUND ONE- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
It was yesterday. I finished my class at 4pm. I went back to my room happily because I looked forward to frisbee at 6pm. I prepared myself and left for the field even before 6pm. The dark and cloudy sky didn't hinder me. I am still very happy. But when I was half way to the field, small droplets kept falling on my head. I am sad. I continued walking with the hope that it will stop. But the rain never ceased. I am very sad. I returned back to my room with a heavy heart. The rain stopped just a while after i stepped into my room....
K.O! Rain wins!!!
Wednesday 9th January 2008
ROUND TWO- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
I am happy. Weather was good. I asked my frisbee kakis to meet for the game today. Around 3pm, sky turned dark. Rain came down. I still hope it will stop in time. 6 pm already, rain finally stopped. I went to field with a friend of mine. Same sad case. We walked to the field. I felt droplets of rain. It never stopped and it became heavier. I am sad again. I am really sad. No frisbee for me again! I walked back to my room. Rain stopped again. I am sad....
Vincent got beaten again. K.O! PERFECT!!! RAIN WINS!
*forgive me for my bad engilish* MALAYSIAN IS ME
ROUND ONE- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
It was yesterday. I finished my class at 4pm. I went back to my room happily because I looked forward to frisbee at 6pm. I prepared myself and left for the field even before 6pm. The dark and cloudy sky didn't hinder me. I am still very happy. But when I was half way to the field, small droplets kept falling on my head. I am sad. I continued walking with the hope that it will stop. But the rain never ceased. I am very sad. I returned back to my room with a heavy heart. The rain stopped just a while after i stepped into my room....
K.O! Rain wins!!!
Wednesday 9th January 2008
ROUND TWO- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
I am happy. Weather was good. I asked my frisbee kakis to meet for the game today. Around 3pm, sky turned dark. Rain came down. I still hope it will stop in time. 6 pm already, rain finally stopped. I went to field with a friend of mine. Same sad case. We walked to the field. I felt droplets of rain. It never stopped and it became heavier. I am sad again. I am really sad. No frisbee for me again! I walked back to my room. Rain stopped again. I am sad....
Vincent got beaten again. K.O! PERFECT!!! RAIN WINS!
*forgive me for my bad engilish* MALAYSIAN IS ME
Friday, January 4, 2008
Legacy Left Behind
People criticized him, saying that he is a disgrace to the nation.
People condemned him for his immoral behaviour.
People said that he is definitely not an example of a good leader.
People despised him for his so-called despicable act.
People wanted him to step down from the leadership.
But they have forgotten that he is a true leader,
simply because he 敢做敢当(dare to do, dare to be responsible)
When I first read about the news of the DVD, I was shocked. Well, I know he is someone but still couldn't believe my eyes. He actually confessed that he was the guy in the DVD. He even took extra miles by expressing public apology to the nation. I couldn't help but felt really sorry for him for such a humiliating episode. I was jeering at him in my heart at first but my thought began to change a bit while, after thinking about it.
Mr. C actually prevailed as a hero despite what was described by people as his political downfall. Unlike normal people who would just blame things or involve others when they are faced with a crisis, he actually took the bull by the horn. I am sure he knows the simple principle of apologizing when one has done wrong. For a man to confess his shameful deed in a public already took a great deal of courage and humility, even a bigger price to pay when he apologized and ask for forgiveness from the public. He risked his reputation and faced the possibility of rejecting by the society. Imagine walking in the park, and people start to look at you with despise.
I believed people that have judged his misbehaving are people no better than him. Its just that he is more of a political figure and his actions are always under the eyes of cameras and mass media. As the saying goes, "tepuk dada, tanya selera", we should ask ourself if we are upright citizens. Offering bribes to get ourself out from troubles, littering in public places, keeping our doorstep clean by discarding our baggage of rubbish into the drains, smoking anywhere and almost anytime, backstabbing on people we dislike and even worst still watching pornography behind closed doors... all this could be categorized as equally immoral and corrupt.
I recalled a part in the bible where a woman caught in adultery was brought to the temple. The scribes and Pharisees were all angered and wanted to stone her ACCORDING to the law. Jesus settled this issue rather easily. 'He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her'. Those were the words of the Teacher. The incident of Mr. C simply has reminded me that God's forgiving heart is ever boundless and immeasurable. Are we lots that just bragged about people's tiny mistake when we ourselves are crooks?
Mr. C has taught me on how to live out loud. What viewed in people's eyes as failure is actually a success in the light of the Word. Its my sincere prayer that this hero of mine will pull through this crisis together with his family. Its my sincere prayer that indeed he eventually find God in his life.
It's not about how blameless we live our lives,
it's about how we let the blameless one lead our lives.
People condemned him for his immoral behaviour.
People said that he is definitely not an example of a good leader.
People despised him for his so-called despicable act.
People wanted him to step down from the leadership.
But they have forgotten that he is a true leader,
simply because he 敢做敢当(dare to do, dare to be responsible)
When I first read about the news of the DVD, I was shocked. Well, I know he is someone but still couldn't believe my eyes. He actually confessed that he was the guy in the DVD. He even took extra miles by expressing public apology to the nation. I couldn't help but felt really sorry for him for such a humiliating episode. I was jeering at him in my heart at first but my thought began to change a bit while, after thinking about it.
Mr. C actually prevailed as a hero despite what was described by people as his political downfall. Unlike normal people who would just blame things or involve others when they are faced with a crisis, he actually took the bull by the horn. I am sure he knows the simple principle of apologizing when one has done wrong. For a man to confess his shameful deed in a public already took a great deal of courage and humility, even a bigger price to pay when he apologized and ask for forgiveness from the public. He risked his reputation and faced the possibility of rejecting by the society. Imagine walking in the park, and people start to look at you with despise.
I believed people that have judged his misbehaving are people no better than him. Its just that he is more of a political figure and his actions are always under the eyes of cameras and mass media. As the saying goes, "tepuk dada, tanya selera", we should ask ourself if we are upright citizens. Offering bribes to get ourself out from troubles, littering in public places, keeping our doorstep clean by discarding our baggage of rubbish into the drains, smoking anywhere and almost anytime, backstabbing on people we dislike and even worst still watching pornography behind closed doors... all this could be categorized as equally immoral and corrupt.
I recalled a part in the bible where a woman caught in adultery was brought to the temple. The scribes and Pharisees were all angered and wanted to stone her ACCORDING to the law. Jesus settled this issue rather easily. 'He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her'. Those were the words of the Teacher. The incident of Mr. C simply has reminded me that God's forgiving heart is ever boundless and immeasurable. Are we lots that just bragged about people's tiny mistake when we ourselves are crooks?
Mr. C has taught me on how to live out loud. What viewed in people's eyes as failure is actually a success in the light of the Word. Its my sincere prayer that this hero of mine will pull through this crisis together with his family. Its my sincere prayer that indeed he eventually find God in his life.
It's not about how blameless we live our lives,
it's about how we let the blameless one lead our lives.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
At The Crossroads
Feeling is something which is hard to comprehend.. We feel what we feel but we sometimes just don't understand why we feel the way we felt...
對你有感覺 (Feelings For You)
我曾深刻體會 對愛感到膽怯
I have deeply experience the fear for love
還好有等我的你給我安慰
Fortunately I have you waiting to comfort me
看你失落的臉 又在為愛憔悴
Looking at you saddened face as love wears you down
我心痛的感覺 竟如此的強烈
My heart cries out in great pain
眼角的淚它給過誰
Where does the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心 也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意 靜靜等 陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, standing beside you
如果說愛已不可為
If this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕 會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid to lose my feelings for you
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著 猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷 朋友戀人之間的危險
I have sunk deep into this danger between love and friendship
进与退 被愛包圍 誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
眼角的淚 它給過誰
Where did the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心 也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意 靜靜等 陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, right there beside you
如果說愛 已不可為
But if this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願 藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕 會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid of losing this feeling
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I am afraid of losing our friendship
矛盾著 猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
进与退 被愛包圍 誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕 朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著 犹豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
深陷 朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
你和我 擁抱瞬間
You and me in each other's embrace
不後悔這曖昧 星空唯美
Never regretting this beautiful sky of love
把愛放心裡面 把愛放心裡面~~
Let love be in the heart....
把愛放心裡面~~ 把愛放心裡面~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yMGX6IVsoQ
對你有感覺 (Feelings For You)
我曾深刻體會 對愛感到膽怯
I have deeply experience the fear for love
還好有等我的你給我安慰
Fortunately I have you waiting to comfort me
看你失落的臉 又在為愛憔悴
Looking at you saddened face as love wears you down
我心痛的感覺 竟如此的強烈
My heart cries out in great pain
眼角的淚它給過誰
Where does the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心 也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意 靜靜等 陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, standing beside you
如果說愛已不可為
If this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕 會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid to lose my feelings for you
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著 猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷 朋友戀人之間的危險
I have sunk deep into this danger between love and friendship
进与退 被愛包圍 誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
眼角的淚 它給過誰
Where did the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心 也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意 靜靜等 陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, right there beside you
如果說愛 已不可為
But if this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願 藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕 會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid of losing this feeling
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I am afraid of losing our friendship
矛盾著 猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
进与退 被愛包圍 誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕 朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著 犹豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
深陷 朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
你和我 擁抱瞬間
You and me in each other's embrace
不後悔這曖昧 星空唯美
Never regretting this beautiful sky of love
把愛放心裡面 把愛放心裡面~~
Let love be in the heart....
把愛放心裡面~~ 把愛放心裡面~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yMGX6IVsoQ
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