Spot the Difference.. Case Closed

For those who are still wondering what went missing in the picture....
I introduce you the 'Mr Viper Switch'.. This is the thing that caused me all the headaches this few days... In case, you are wondering how much does the thing costs.. It is RM95 for a second hand viper switch and another RM30 for service charge( six screws unscrewed to replaced the thing back, assume x as the cost for each screwed unscrewed,therefore 6x=30, x=RM5) Its RM5 for one screw I tell you... Nevertheless, thank God I didnt break any more VALUABLE parts. Thank him also for this chapter of my life. Without it, I wil never know how much it costs me to be an adult. Yes, an adult! Just turned 20 this year.

Moral of the story: DRIVE more CAREFULLY!

Quietness

I have stopped listening to that song which I posted few weeks back, rarely listens to love songs too . I didn't think of her as much as I had when I came back to college after semester break. But tonight, after a yamchaing session with my Ipoh mali friends, I walked back to my room. There was only me, alone in my room. Time began to slow down after a long and busy day. Quietness was all around. Thoughts of her creeped slowly into my mind. Knowing that this relationship was hard to work out, I wanted to put a stop to this feeling. I just couldn't bid farewell to this feeling. I have failed....

Spot the Difference

Speechless me.. Sometimes we just need to be extra careful when handling old and flimsy stuff..

Who is to be blamed??

No one but me myself..

God, I know you are training me to smile at the storm..

But just why on something that doesnt belong to me...

Another PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE lesson.

I Missed

I missed Ipoh.
I missed scouting despite the many difficulties
and challenges that came my way.
I missed my camping days.
I missed my parang, bamboo, mangroove, marching, gunny strings....
I missed those torturous days of punishment
by my committeees with my scout comrades.
I missed my fellow brother scouts and sister guides.
I missed the days when I loitered in my school compound.
I missed my schoolmates.
I missed Yuk Choy
(despite how bad people may think of YC, Yuk Choy still ROXXXX!!!)
I missed those days when I hang around
with my childhood pals in church.
I missed doing crazy stuffs with them.
I missed my church.
I missed maggi goreng in Salim's Corner.
I missed those days when I was just a naive boy.
I missed those days before I turned 20.
I missed home.
I missed mum's cooking.
I missed sister's noise.
I missed dad's discipline for me.
I missed Ye Ye's pamper.
I missed Ma Ma's cooking too...
I missed those cycling days in Ipoh and Canning Garden.
I missed the times when I don't miss her.

Guys and Their Egoism

Is it fair for me to say that
guys generally have egoism flowing in their veins?
If the game is on his side, he will stay cool.
If not, he wil go bull.
He will keep quiet when he fails in his attempts to score,
but when his teammates misses a
score, he will yell at that person.
He frowns at others' aggresiveness
when he didn't realise he is a hooligan himself.
He thinks the team will lose without him.
It's sometimes good to give motivation
but it will serve no good
if ones pushes his team too hard.
Well, it needs not be true for all guys to be like that.
But those are things i have in myself.

Are we true sportsmen or mere bull-fighters?
We need to check ourself.

Last Days...

It was some time between 30 and 31st December 2007. Usually for my devotion, I would follow a guide where a passage is considered for each day. For that particular day, I was caught in a timing which is nowhere. Close to 31st but 30th has not end. So I decided to just read both the days' text. I didn't get the time to do some serious reflection and making of new year resolution but those words from God really aligned me to His direction for 2008.

Luke 12:35-40- Be dressed in readiness, and keep yours lamps lit. Be like men who are waiting for their master when he returns from the wedding feast. so that they may immediately open the door to him when he comes and knocks...... But be sure of this, that if the head of the house have known at what hour theif was coming, he would not have allowed his house to be broken into. You too, be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at tan hour that you do not expect.

I was kind of puzzled when I read this, wondering why would God speak to me about this. Nevertheless, I moved on to the next passage.

Psalm 23:5-6- You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;You have anointed my head with oil; My cups overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

This passage made sense to me because for the past 2007, I never did realise this part of the psalm though it's familiar. I have been living my life on my own too much, too much that God that seemed very much in the picture is found nowhere. I have literally kept God in my closet when life could have been much better if I lived my life with His strength. I have learnt my lesson again and I do hope I will not step on my foot again in the future.

I retired to bed after doing my devotion though I still couldn't understand why God gave me Luke 12. On 31st, I went to the watchnight service in my church. People were anticipating much and the supposed- to- be two hour meeting strecthed on to 4 hours. The speaker finally took over the meeting at about 11pm. I was waiting eagerly for the message. He was speaking on the urgency of spreading the gospel. Things mentioned in the Bible of the end times were fulfilled one by one and we have known of that. But what are our responses towards these happenings. This message appealed especially to me because he cleared my doubts on why Luke 12 was given to me that night. God was simply telling me to live my days as if its my last. It made sense to me now.

Today, I read from Psalm 90. This are verses that again lights up my pathway towards 2008.

Who understands the power of your anger.
And Your fury, according to the fear that is due You.

If only I can fully fathom the depths of these words of Moses. Transformation would definitely take place. I look forward to exploring this year. A year which I pray that I can be a more effective witness for Him. My service for Him should be an expression of my outpouring of his overflowing love in my heart an not the otherwise. And of course, a new year resolution that was carried forth from year to year, Taming My Tongue, an area that I have failed time and again.

"Use your mustard-seed-faith!!!"

P-I-L-L-O-W

I finally bought myself a pillow.. Yes, its a pillow. I have been sleeping in Room F1-24 without my pillow for 11 days ever since I reached INTI to resume my studies.

To add some bitterness to my cup, we had been having a natural alarm clocks every morning. At 8am or so, we would be awakened by a low amplitude with high frequency 'ting-ting-ting', sound of a hammer hitting on some metal thing followed by the thunderous noise with higher amplitude of drilling. The experience of waking up by this kind of annoying and disturbing sound pollution is definitely not the moment anyone wants to have in their life. Its one of the worst experience I have ever had. And believe me, its a routine tingee for me, well at least for two months i guess...

And now I have another companion to accompany me through this agony. I didnt have the chance to bid farewell to my loyal buddy-old pillow. My friend of whose room I left my pillow in throughout the semester claimed that my pillow is mossy. He threw my buddy away( cannot blame him also). There my old buddy went. I am wondering if he's doing fine now. In the junk? Life must have been hard for him too..

The old has gone and the new has come. I am happy to have get my new companion. Mr. Casablanca Foam(his name is written on the wrapper of the pillow) will be sharing me his dreams. I truly hope it will have a happy ending with me, not happily ever after but at least not like the fate of my old pillow. Anyway, Praise the Lord for providing us PILLOW!!!

You will never realise the significance of your pillow until it's gone.
-VINCENT-

RAIN on ME

Tuesday 8th January 2008
ROUND ONE- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
It was yesterday. I finished my class at 4pm. I went back to my room happily because I looked forward to frisbee at 6pm. I prepared myself and left for the field even before 6pm. The dark and cloudy sky didn't hinder me. I am still very happy. But when I was half way to the field, small droplets kept falling on my head. I am sad. I continued walking with the hope that it will stop. But the rain never ceased. I am very sad. I returned back to my room with a heavy heart. The rain stopped just a while after i stepped into my room....

K.O! Rain wins!!!

Wednesday 9th January 2008
ROUND TWO- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
I am happy. Weather was good. I asked my frisbee kakis to meet for the game today. Around 3pm, sky turned dark. Rain came down. I still hope it will stop in time. 6 pm already, rain finally stopped. I went to field with a friend of mine. Same sad case. We walked to the field. I felt droplets of rain. It never stopped and it became heavier. I am sad again. I am really sad. No frisbee for me again! I walked back to my room. Rain stopped again. I am sad....

Vincent got beaten again. K.O! PERFECT!!! RAIN WINS!

*forgive me for my bad engilish* MALAYSIAN IS ME

Legacy Left Behind

People criticized him, saying that he is a disgrace to the nation.
People condemned him for his immoral behaviour.
People said that he is definitely not an example of a good leader.
People despised him for his so-called despicable act.
People wanted him to step down from the leadership.
But they have forgotten that he is a true leader,
simply because he 敢做敢当(dare to do, dare to be responsible)

When I first read about the news of the DVD, I was shocked. Well, I know he is someone but still couldn't believe my eyes. He actually confessed that he was the guy in the DVD. He even took extra miles by expressing public apology to the nation. I couldn't help but felt really sorry for him for such a humiliating episode. I was jeering at him in my heart at first but my thought began to change a bit while, after thinking about it.

Mr. C actually prevailed as a hero despite what was described by people as his political downfall. Unlike normal people who would just blame things or involve others when they are faced with a crisis, he actually took the bull by the horn. I am sure he knows the simple principle of apologizing when one has done wrong. For a man to confess his shameful deed in a public already took a great deal of courage and humility, even a bigger price to pay when he apologized and ask for forgiveness from the public. He risked his reputation and faced the possibility of rejecting by the society. Imagine walking in the park, and people start to look at you with despise.

I believed people that have judged his misbehaving are people no better than him. Its just that he is more of a political figure and his actions are always under the eyes of cameras and mass media. As the saying goes, "tepuk dada, tanya selera", we should ask ourself if we are upright citizens. Offering bribes to get ourself out from troubles, littering in public places, keeping our doorstep clean by discarding our baggage of rubbish into the drains, smoking anywhere and almost anytime, backstabbing on people we dislike and even worst still watching pornography behind closed doors... all this could be categorized as equally immoral and corrupt.

I recalled a part in the bible where a woman caught in adultery was brought to the temple. The scribes and Pharisees were all angered and wanted to stone her ACCORDING to the law. Jesus settled this issue rather easily. 'He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her'. Those were the words of the Teacher. The incident of Mr. C simply has reminded me that God's forgiving heart is ever boundless and immeasurable. Are we lots that just bragged about people's tiny mistake when we ourselves are crooks?

Mr. C has taught me on how to live out loud. What viewed in people's eyes as failure is actually a success in the light of the Word. Its my sincere prayer that this hero of mine will pull through this crisis together with his family. Its my sincere prayer that indeed he eventually find God in his life.

It's not about how blameless we live our lives,
it's about how we let the blameless one lead our lives.

At The Crossroads

Feeling is something which is hard to comprehend.. We feel what we feel but we sometimes just don't understand why we feel the way we felt...

對你有感覺 (Feelings For You)

我曾深刻體會 對愛感到膽怯
I have deeply experience the fear for love
還好有等我的你給我安慰
Fortunately I have you waiting to comfort me
看你失落的臉 又在為愛憔悴
Looking at you saddened face as love wears you down
我心痛的感覺 竟如此的強烈
My heart cries out in great pain
眼角的淚它給過誰
Where does the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心 也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意 靜靜等 陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, standing beside you
如果說愛已不可為
If this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕 會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid to lose my feelings for you
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著 猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷 朋友戀人之間的危險
I have sunk deep into this danger between love and friendship
进与退 被愛包圍 誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
眼角的淚 它給過誰
Where did the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心 也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意 靜靜等 陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, right there beside you
如果說愛 已不可為
But if this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願 藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕 會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid of losing this feeling
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I am afraid of losing our friendship
矛盾著 猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
进与退 被愛包圍 誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕 朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著 犹豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會 開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
深陷 朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
你和我 擁抱瞬間
You and me in each other's embrace
不後悔這曖昧 星空唯美
Never regretting this beautiful sky of love
把愛放心裡面 把愛放心裡面~~
Let love be in the heart....
把愛放心裡面~~ 把愛放心裡面~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yMGX6IVsoQ