vincent the son of mr. chan is still a LOSER

18/11/08 holds no significant meaning to anyone except some who have their birthday or their special occasions on this very day. But this day is the day of reckoning for me, the announcement of result for my Year 2 Semester 2. I didn't expect too much from this exam also. As mentioned in the older posts, I am tired of being a loser. I grabbed hold myself of some courage and signed in to the website to check it the resultss. I told myself, even if i couldn't pull up my average, at least I will maintain it. But to my horror, it wasn't even there. I have been and after all still a loser. Looking at my dung-like result, I couldn't help but swallowed my tears. Not that I have not put in any effort in those papers but I just can't perform. The paper of which i put my highest hope only turned out to be a mere B- (I aimed to get at least an A-).

Now that my last semester is dawning, I just could pray that greater things are yet to come. Final semester in INTI means final project and subjects that kept some student another semester in INTI.

Lord, give me the diligence and the faith
that you will help me to not become a grasshopper.
I am tired of being a loser all through my college studies.
I never know how it feels to be accomplished
since I step into tertiary level.
O Lord, make this semester a conquering semester for me.
Amen

O Sacred King by Matt Redman

One brother chose this song in the night worship we had two days back. I am glad he chose this song although most of us don't know this song. The lyrics of the song goes like this:

O Sacred King
O Holy King
How can I honour you rightly
Honour that's fit for your name

O Sacred King
O Holy King
I don't take what you did lightly
Friendship instead of disgrace

For it's the mystery of the universe
You're the God of holiness
Yet you welcome souls like me
And with the blessings of your Father's heart
You discipline the ones you love
There's kindness in your majesty
Jesus, those who recognise your power
Know just how wonderful you are
That You draw near

I am much moved by the words of this songs. How can we truly do what You actually did for us? If I am asked to forgive a person who has wronged me or hurt me, I think it would take me some time to forgive that person. What more to forgive and forget? But the God whom I worship not only forgive and forget, but He drew near to me. This is the ultimate demonstration of love and grace. If only the people of this earth can do this to each other, this world definitely will be a better place. I am humbled. If a God universe showed love to dust, all the more, we, human made of dusts need to follow his example in doing so to people around us. Currently, I am dealing with an old wound that has re-emerged, I pray that God will help me get over this and to be reconciled to that guy. Amen

My Goliath is Here

Development and Fabrication of Humanoid Arm Manipulator - part of the Robofriend research project.... Got this title as my final year project, truly breathtaking... Looking forward to lots of work in the coming semester.. Got to buck up and go all out for this project. Alhamdulilah.